Today has been one of the hard days.
I’m so tempted to dive into that giant Costco-sized bag of m’n'm’s that are in the pantry for a birthday sleepover tomorrow night.
The chocolate chips are calling my name.
So are the salami and sliced cheese in the fridge.
Today, I’ve wanted to throw away the last eleven days of progress for some short-term feel better eating.
It’s been a rough day. A situation with the boy – that seemed to be off to a good start earlier this week- took a few steps backward today. We’re realizing, too slowly perhaps, that he needs more help than we can give or that the help he’s currently getting can provide. I got that phone call on the way to the big city to take the girl to physical therapy, something that already causes me stress. I don’t like to drive, but driving on freeways brings me to the verge of a breakdown (if I had my way, I’d never have had to even learn to drive much less do it on a daily basis). The combination, plus the earlier struggles of this week and a crazy Friday on the horizon, have left my stomach a fluttery mess and me on edge.
When that happens, I turn to food.
I’ve eaten more than I should have today, but the stress bites have been nuts and fruit, and I’ve been able to maintain my Whole30 streak (even if it’s a bit higher in some of the foods I prefer to eat less of).
I know that those m’n'm’s have an oddly chemical taste now. I know the chocolate chips will hurt my stomach. So will the cheese. And the salami is so greasy, my teeth will feel funny (you have no idea how big of a deterrent that is for me).
I’m focusing on what will happen if I do give in to the stress eating siren song, and on the disappointment I’m drinking some peppermint tea. I should head out for a walk…but it’s crazy cold out there today (big, fat, lazy excuse, I know). I’ve been cleaning to release some frustration. And I’ve been actively processing the stress, realizing that there were some other factors going into the boy’s breakdown today that couldn’t be controlled.
And that’s okay.
Tomorrow will be better.
How do you cope when the stress of a day threatens to derail you? Any tips or tricks?